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Learning How to Breathe
04:29
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I've felt the same way for years
And now I'm done with it
I want something different
I want to be excited
Never ever worried
Live my life smiling
This is my final farewell
To this way of thinking
To this way of living
Occasionally I'll lose my mind but then I find it
Screw it on tight then I'm fine, I'm alright
Then I'm fine and then I'm alright
I have been fixing myself in ways only I could have dreamed of
I will create something that matters
And not only for me
I listened to my music from two years ago
It was so negative that's not how I want to be anymore
that's not how I want to be known
I am changing and this time it's for the better
No longer do I want to leave this place
And have a negative view of it
Hey, how are you, how you doing
It's been a long time, but I hope you're okay
I've been learning how to breathe
And I think I have been doing it okay
It's been quite the year we've had
But it's been quite the life we've had we're okay
Where I'm at I can't describe it
But I think I know I like it okay
I am my own person
I make my own decisions
Nobody I know can take that away
When I leave in a few months
I will leave on my own
It won't feel like I have to run away
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Number the Good Days
03:35
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Counting down the days I have here
There's not much left
Soon I'll be in a new state
Thinking of the ones I left
I'll cherish the time I have left here
I'll live it up with no fear
My attitudes everything
My attitudes everything
You're going to have to leave anyway
There's no point in being afraid
You're attitudes everything
You're attitudes everything
I look at myself in the mirror
Every morning and say "This is a good day"
Our days are limited and we're aware of it
There's no point of spending it feeling like shit
I hope that in a year it will be so clear
Why I loved it here, why I miss it here
There's nothing to do, but I'm here with you
I never thought it through but I hope you knew
The days we have left
Are the best days of our four years
Live them now
How they should be without any tears
Everything bad's only in your head
Everything bad's only in your head
Everything bad's only in your head
(You know your attitude's everything)
Everything bad's only in your head
(You know your attitude's everything)
You know this is a good day
We don't have much left of good days
So number all of the good days
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Learn to enjoy all the little things
Know that you don't have to overthink
Not everything is as big as it seems
No not everything is as big as it seems
Be more sober often than not
And don't forget about what you got
There are people who want to see you succeed
Ya there are people who want to see you succeed
I had a good week for two weeks
And those weeks were so fucking neat
Now I'm back to my normal self
Now I'm back to my normal self
So I'll find out what about those two weeks
Made me feel so fucking happy
And I'll make that my normal self
And I'll make that my normal self
Sometimes I talk shit in my head
And I know it's better unsaid
Then I think of what I have left
Some things you just cannot forget
If it were only up to me then I would only live a dream
And Sometimes I say what's in my head
And I know it's better unsaid
Then I think of what's in your head
Waiting for those things to be said
I am not the type to scream but sometimes it feels right for me
I would like to know
I would love to know
Everyone else's point of view of me
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4. |
Friends Pt. 1
05:44
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Back when I told myself that everything was apart
You came to me, put it back together
Change my mind, changed my head, you make me not feel so dead
You make me want to be here instead
You know I've gone through shit and I know you've gone through shit
We are always here to fix it
I have to say goodbye and I don't want to say goodbye
So hopefully it's a see you later
Because I have to leave right now
But you know that I'll come around
Where I'll go, I don't know
Where I'll go, I do know
That I'll still have my friends
I didn't think about this all last year
And now I really wish you were here
My vision has never been so clear
And now it's fogging up again
We don't have much time left
The clock moves fast with no intention of slowing down
Cherish these moments, I try not to forget
But it's so hard when I'm freaking out
Because this shit is happening
And I don't know
What will happen to you and me
All of these thoughts in my head
I think I'd rather stay in bed
I thought I wanted to leave
But not when you look at me
Where I'll go, I don't know
Where I'll go, I do know
That I'll still have my friends
I told you that I wouldn't be worried
I wouldn't be scared
But now that it's here I can't
Stop freaking out
Before I scream my own head off
About things that I know won't be so bad
Don't you cry because everybody knows
That you'll be alright
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Friends Pt. 2
07:27
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I take a look at the map
I see where I'm at and where I'm not
I see all of my friends
I think of the times I haven't forgot
Pretending to like
What I don't like to fit in
Fitting in doesn't work
It makes me feel more isolated
Move away to a different state
Where nobody there even knows my name
And I have to start all over once again
Meet new people when I'm there
But I won't be as close as I am here
And I'll miss my friends when will I see them again?
All of my friends
Know where I am
They know where I've been
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6. |
Eighteen
05:47
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You got what you wanted
It's just the beginning
All the times that you fought it
You knew that you were winning
And now that you got it
Your head won't stop spinning
You got what you wanted
I hope that you're grinning
Because you're eighteen now
Don't start crying now
You'll be alright
You'll be just fine
If I loved you this year
Then I'll love you next year
We won't stop the party if you don't
There's no reason to be upset right now
My friends are here and your friends are here
And we all just want to have a good time
Don't stop moving, don't stop dancing
There's no reason to be upset right now
If we all put a smile on our face
Then I know we could have a good time
You got what you wanted
Doesn't it feel strange?
Now that you have it
You won't ever be the same
You know that it's better
Ya, you know that you're winning
And as you read the letter
You couldn't stop grinning
Because you're eighteen now
Don't start crying now
You'll be alright
You'll be just fine
If I loved you this year
Then I'll love you next year
We won't stop the party if you don't
There's no reason to be upset right now
My friends are here and your friends are here
And we all just want to have a good time
Don't stop moving, don't stop dancing
There's no reason to be upset right now
If we all put a smile on our face
Then I know we could have a good time
You're eighteen now
You're eighteen now
You're eighteen now
You're eighteen now
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7. |
The Hill
04:36
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I went to bed late last night
But I feel great, in fact I feel fine
Thinking too much of the future
Getting worried, running out of time
I climbed up the hill this morning
I feel great, in fact I feel fine
The dream lasts longer than the accomplishment
Is what I realized
I am dreaming of a place where
I'll be myself and I'll be happy
I am worried that it will cost me
The people that make me happy
Dreams are there to come true
I'll work hard to get through
The pain and then I'll continue
To do what I love to do
I went to bed late last night
But I feel better than yesterday
I climbed up the hill this morning
And I feel better than yesterday
I am going to a place where
I'll be myself and I'll be happy
I know I'll meet new friends
And keep the ones that make me happy
Dreams are there to come true
I'll work hard to get through
The pain and then I'll continue
To do what I love to do
I've wanted this for too long
for me to give up, for me to break
What most people do when asleep
I like to do when awake
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8. |
Home for the Holidays
06:44
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Everyone is out of their head
Thinking of what they could have done instead
Everyone one is out of their comfort zone
Waiting for the next time to go home
Everybody leaves to see what's in the world to see
But not everybody likes what they have to see
But I know that won't be me
Ya, I know that won't be me
Ya, I know I won't leave this place screaming
Leaving everything
Ya, I'm leaving everything
But I know that there's something waiting for me
Something's waiting for me
We hug tight, you start to cry, as we say goodbye
Your tears fill my eyes, we both know exactly why
I have to leave this place, there's something I have to chase
We both know I'll fly high, we know I'll thrive
I don't want to leave but I know I need to
I will see what's waiting for me, what I was born to do
I'll be home for the holidays
I can guarantee that for you, for me, for you
We'll hug tight we start to cry as we realize
I have a new life and that is just fine
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Friends Pt. 3
05:30
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I used to be excited for this day to come
But now that it's here all I want to do is go back
Back to before back to when
We weren't scared of what's behind that door
I wan't to go back but I can't go back
Maybe that's the point of living afterall
So we have these memories, all of these memories
That we can look fondly of
And all of these memories
Remind us of who we once all loved
Becuase we have our hearts, but our heads not in it
And we have eachother but what happens when we leave the hall
Well when that happens, and it will happen
Please don't forget to call
I'm not going where my friends are going
But I know that we'll be back
I'm not going where my friends are going
But I know they have my back
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10. |
Butterflies and Bears
04:03
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A shot in the dark and a shot through the heart
That makes you want to go back in time
To when everything was alright
Strip away, take away everything I can say
To second guess myself
I don't want to think like that anymore
I will walk again
I will walk again
No longer am I afraid to take this step
In the right direction
Towards being the person I know I can love
Through the pain. through the worry
Something is driving me to this place
Where I know I can be someone that I love
I will walk again
I will walk again
I will walk again
I will walk again
I can't scream at the top of my lungs
I can't cry because I know it will be alright
And in five years I will look back at here
And thinking about how it was all alright
Because butterflies and bears tell me where to go
And butterflies and bears tell me it's okay to go
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